In or Out

I hold a lot of people at arms length! The trusting thing has always been hard. Nobody sticks around long enough to know that I can be funny or witty…. The truth is I’m scared to let people in. Every time I do I get hurt. Not that I let people see the pain. It is internalized and masked by irritation. I get so mad about how people aren’t who they say they are. Or when people don’t keep their word. Or when they act like they cared and they don’t. I spent 19 minutes this morning trying to cry about it. Since not one tear fell, I will try again tomorrow.