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I feel trapped! Have you ever felt trapped by the person you want to be versed the person you are? I want to be happy, but I always feel sad. I want to be skinny, but I’m always so hungry. Or this one…. I want to be a writer, but what if what I write isn’t profound enough. It feels like the next step you take has to be your best one or it’s not worth taking it at all. But I am writing this blog to remind myself that it doesn’t matter. My best foot forward is the way forward.

This year is the year of writing! While I said that last year, i’m serious!! I plan to post a blog post at the minimum weekly! And I WILL write this book! There are many times in my life that I don’t do things out of fear of failure! But the thing is, now I’m not afraid to fail! I’m ok as long as I try! So each day I will be intentional about doing what I said I would do! Are you with me?

Chastising feels so hateful! I mean speak your truth, but each word I hear, each thing you say, sounds hateful! I feel hated, and I hate that feeling. It feels like a confirmation notice that my life is falling part. I feel like I have to thread lightly because the rug keeps getting pulled from under me. I question if I should even put the rug back considering it only gives them an opportunity to pull it again. I don’t know, hopefully things get better!

Part of me feels like things will get better but that’s usually the first sign that things won’t. Talking about it is supposed to be easier, but it’s not working. Sometimes I lose my train of thought thinking about what could be or what should have been. Something is wrong because it has to be…. right. That’s the only thing that makes sense about the situation, in my mind. Because it doesn’t make sense… It just doesn’t!

I hold a lot of people at arms length! The trusting thing has always been hard. Nobody sticks around long enough to know that I can be funny or witty…. The truth is I’m scared to let people in. Every time I do I get hurt. Not that I let people see the pain. It is internalized and masked by irritation. I get so mad about how people aren’t who they say they are. Or when people don’t keep their word. Or when they act like they cared and they don’t. I spent 19 minutes this mornin

I hate it here! And by it I mean you and by here I mean this whole stupid situation! I am sitting by my phone waiting for a text and or call, which is something I said I’d never do again! Everyone was soooo excited for me! What did I say, “calm down, it’s not that serious, yall are stressing me out!” The list goes on and on! This is stupid, it will always be stupid and if it ever gets to a point where it’s no longer stupid, be sure to let me know!

I want to be addicted to being the best version of myself! Like I’m realizing it has to be in you. That filling of just wanting to be better. It has to be a part of who you are wired in your DNA. Sometimes our worry is not wired in in mine. Do I want to be the best version of myself? Do I wanna be the best at my job? Do I want to be the best tennis player I can be? Do I want to be CPA certified? The answer is I do! So hold me accountable because today marks the day. I’m gonna

There’s a lot of times in my life where I wish people were more like me. Not in the big ways, like being funny or out going but in the complicated ways, like coping or communicating. I set myself aside wanting to give the world a big hug so that they feel better. But do I know how to make myself feel better? I actually commend the ones who can take a beat or take a step back and realize something‘s wrong. That’s what makes us different right the way we act how we feel how we

There are little parts of myself that I hate…. I know it’s a strong word, but a lot of the time I get stuck in the thought of how I can be better. Then that little hateful thought crosses my mind telling me I can’t. I can’t dress better, I can’t feel happy, I can’t do my hair. There are so many things I want to fix about myself, and I get so caught up in my thoughts, that I fix nothing!

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