Too Often

There are a lot of times in life where I find myself defending my character. I have been accused of being a pushover, pushy, mean, calculated, quiet, loud………crazy. All of which at a time may be accurate, but they don’t define who I am. I was a pushover because I was too nice and I wanted to please people. I was pushy because I wanted my way, and often never really got it. (Still mad about that one) I was mean because I would say what was on my mind even if it made people uncomfortable. I was calculated because too often when I feel like someone is getting over on me, I try and beat them at their own game. (That has gotten me in trouble a few times) Quiet because I got tired of being called crazy or too much! Loud because I was just trying to defend myself! And Crazy because people are just mean and never see me for who I was truly trying to be in that sutuation. But none the less, “Too Often” I feel misunderstood, unheard, unnoticed. But we all feel that way sometimes, right?